Am I overthinking the Christian walk?
Christian, Do you ever feel like you are doing it all wrong? That the way you are living life is completely out of whack from the way that God intends for you to be? If so, I am in that boat right now. I feel like my spiritual disciplines are completely empty. God, I'm praying to you, but do you really hear me? God, I feel like I am not correctly "obeying" you. How much is enough? Am I trying to please you by my obedience in reading the Bible? Am I trying to please myself through my own obedience? Why does simply being his child seem harder than it should? God, I feel like I am in a desert and it hurts so badly. I do not even know where to go in our conversation. I feel like prayer is a one-way conversation. And the worst thing of all, I hate myself for feeling this way. I truly do. Preaching the Gospel to myself seems sugarcoated and futile. God, I don't want to feel far away. "Why are you cast down, O my soul, why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in t...